Blog #1.2 “Getting used to a busy schedule”

 Good day dear reader! It sure has been a while since I have written a blog. 

My hands are stuck and my mind is not going on a roll. It seems as if my fingers have forgotten how to type with such speed and precision that I would be able to get compared to when I was in 7th Grade. 

Sometimes, I have to write a little more just to get myself “into the zone” of writing a blog in AEP. 

Truth be told, my 7th Grade blogs have been nothing but my old self thinking that I could write amazing things. Yes, thats right! Thats me thinking I was a good old genius…What awful times 

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 You know those times when you have a quiz on a certain time and you studied for it just on the night before and you realized that everyone in your class forgot there was a quiz today? Yeah, I've been there, usually when that happens I have both a happy and an annoyed feeling. Annoyed you ask? Well I get annoyed because now I have to wait another week just to have that quiz. I have a happy feeling because I don't have to feel bad even though I studied the night before! I'm such a great student.

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-August 24,2019

Definitely! Just look at my last definitely-not-sarcastic sentence. 

Oops,  I made another sarcastic sentence. 

As the days in AEP pass by, especially during face-to-face classes, I remember the days where I used to complain about having too much work and too little time. I am realising how online classes just allowed us to think and be into a predicament many people face. We think as if time is moving by really quickly, but this is just an illusion many forget to see through. Now in face-to-face classes, I have double or even triple times the amount of work I used to have when I was in online classes. Despite this, I still manage to finish everything somehow, although I do indeed still feel tired and exhausted. Evaluating yourself is something that you should do often, I think its something I should do more too. One thing I realised is that I no longer feel unaccomplished. I actually feel happy finishing the work I do, and that was something I wanted to feel for the past 2 years of online classes. 

These days, many events have been happening. Sometimes it takes a toll on the way my mind works, confining my brain into a fight or flight response with the work that must be accomplished by a 10th grader. Everyday I still feel just a little sleepy, but when I talk with my classmates and try to listen to class lectures, I manage to wake up and then enjoy a nice nap on the 45 minute ride home. One thing about me though is that I like it when I have work that I can finish. I like feeling like I have something to do, something to achieve and something that I can be proud about. Every little assessment, job, and skill. It was very different in online classes because I would always find a way to just end my job in the fastest way possible, most of the time. 

During the past months in AEP, whilst getting used to face-to-face classes and events, we have tried and conquered many ways to do our learning methods. Grade 10 is all about essays, and so, we write a lot of essays! So far, we have been writing about graphs. These graphs mostly contain two to three subjects and these objects show a change in numbers. Me and my classmates try our best to translate these graphs into an essay format suitable for a passable grade for Ielts. We would go on miro, our well known digital whiteboard, and then try to find words that can help us for these essays. We try to also analyze the main points we are supposed to write about. Then, we put these points into structured sentences using the right words to make a good essay. 

At the start, I was thinking that it would be a simple task to do. During our first essay lesson, we were asked to write as essay immediately to stand as our starting point. I thought I would do alright because I’d think ,”Ive written many essays before, surely this one would go the same way as my other english essays.” 

I was far from right. 

Writing these types of essay really mixes up my brain. I need to use specific words and I am limited with the amount of opinions I use. The word counts always tie my hands up. Ms would tell us many rules only for them to pile up in my messy file storage in my brain. This is why she thought of something quite extraordinary! Which was to try to have baby steps in miro so we would be able to work out how to make our essays a lot better. What we do is that we gather out main points and contrasting ideas in several graphs while trying to analyze them. 

I personally find taking baby steps really tough. I am a person who likes to make things finish faster especially if it has to do with something I am not that versed in.

Aside from daily word games and shenanigans, I definitely learnt that I need to learn how to take smaller steps at a time to achieve goals quicker… maybe that sounds a bit too broad to get from a lesson but, here it is! 

Thank you for reading this blog, see you in the next one!